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 My world was fallin' apart, On ground were shards of my heart, Chaos in every deep breath of mine, Silence deafening the wind chime; Those tornados and the hurricane, Was clearly driving me numb and insane, Sky whirled of thunderstorm and lightening, Every step towards darkness of life was frightening, And no where out of blue you appeared, It was most secured in city which feared, The warriors bleeding blue black and red, I can't hear my heart beating, is it dead? You came close in blurry vision in of my eyes, Again...I thought it was web of lies, Your embrace felt like home, you gave me shoulder, For a second it felt like my spine fell colder, The warmth of yours was bringing peace, I couldn't stand up from my knees, You leaned in and picked me up from dust, You were a stranger I wasn't ready to trust; I close my eyes onto your chest, Then you said, " it's okay take some rest". That shoulder and chest and you made me alive, I think now I was ready to dr

I've been hearing your voice, Over the chaos and riots, I've been hearing clamour and noise, And going through fights... The Swords of gold clashing, Hearts of mercy and soul of Lily crashing.. The hatred and poetries pleading, Oh everywhere i see something is bleeding, And I've been thinking about you, All this time when sun turned hue, Redness flowing on the ground, Ropes through my neck bound, And over it all I remember is that smile, My soul pleads for searching you one more mile, I've been smiling to the snake, I've been holding secrets to grave, And in the end your scent is what I crave, The spirits from heaven holding the holy grail, They're flying freely when some are slave, I'm sorry whatever I've been doing is a fail, Mortality is becoming the pain, Immortality being the numbness, I've been takin those secrets to grave, Yes I've been takin those secrets to grave, But once before I leave for the war, Would you once take me in your embrac

Last time I met you, I think I should, have hugged you tighter than ever, Last time I looked into your eyes, I should have know there won't be a forever. Last time I laughed with you by my side, I should have laughed harder. Last time I was with you my smile didn't hide, But I should have known things would be shattered.

I grab the sharpest knife, Through my wrist I want to drive, Let go of everything, end my life... Count the dots, of each reason, Spring dancing through summer season... Take my hand we'd dance once more, Before I dive into the ocean, But right now I'm standing on shore, I want to get rid of the emotion, Make me feel so low, A cut or two or a hundred, Until I fall on the floor, The rivers of red.. But you come knocking through the door, You try to break it down, then you try window, I let go of my soul so slow... You pick me up rush to your car, It's dazzling fast and we're far, Sun going back to the sea, I turn to you , your smile is all I want to see, My head on your shoulder, your eyes blurry, Your tee soaked white to red blood, You drive recklessly in night so starry, You hold my wrist tight to stop the flood, You curse yourself for doing it all, You are about to give up you're about to fall, But beloved it wasn't just you, The reasons were many, nothing new

Sometimes I'm beaten Sometimes I'm broke Is there a secret? Is there a code? 'cause I'm losing hope Tell me how to be in this world Tell me how to breathe in and feel no hurt Tell me how could i believe in something I believe in us After this wreckage After the dust I still hear the howling,I still feel the rush Over the riots,above all the noise Through all worry,I still hear your voice So,tell me how to be in this world Tell me how to breathe in and feel no hurt Tell me how 'cause I believe in something I believe in us Tell me when the light goes out Then even in the dark we will find a way out Tell me now 'cause I believe in something I believe in us Used to be kids living just for kicks In cinema seats,learning how to kiss Running through streets that were painted gold We never believed we'd grow up like this So tell me how to be in this world Tell me how to breathe in and feel no hurt Tell me how 'cause I believe in something I believe in us Tell

I wanted to hold you tight, I wanted to tell you it's gonna be alright, I wanted to tell you this a just a gloomy night. I wanted you to turn your darkness into light. I wanted to gather those broken pieces, The heart so shattered the soul so wounded, I wanted to plant some kisses, On those scars of yours, so messed. But wait why did you break me? I gave up I fell on knee, I felt intense pain in my heart, I wanted to cure and you wanted to hurt? You left me, and I was numb. I was trying to heal you, Was I so dumb? Or you wanted someone new?

I've been with bodies that weren't yours, I've been holding people which ain't mine, I've kissed lips which ain't yours, I've been pushed off the line. I've been through the hell, I've been through heaven of your embrace, I've been mesmerized by your smell, I've been pushed off the ledge of your grace, I've been casted spells, I've been in wars screaming pain, I've been in the dark of bloody rain, I've been hearing your voice over it all, I've been ripping off my soul, I've been dying to be held by you... I don't want to put you in 'he left too', I've been smiling to strangers walking, I've been all while faking, I've been fucking all around without you by my side, I've been painting strokes of lust to hide, I've been drowning in abysmal ocean to die, I've been searching for your eyes. I've been takin drugs ,getting high.. I've been caressing those beautiful lies...  But w

YOU ARE TRYING TO FIND PAIN? GO AHEAD TURN MY DIARY PAGES... HAVE A MORNING GLANCE AT MY PILLOW LOOK DEEP INTO MY EYES LOOK BEYOND MY SMILE FEEL MY WORDS DON'T READ THEM MAYBE YOU COULD KNOW ME A BIT THEN

You said you were fed up of me, I stood there blaming myself, why wasn't I no more strong I loved you so hard but where, But where did I go so wrong....

I DON'T MAKE ANYONE STAY IF THEY'RE LEAVING MY LIFE I'M OKAY WITH IT BUT IF I MADE AN EFFORT TO MAKE YOU STAY THEN UK...WHAT DO I FEEL FOR YA                                                                             💔

YOU KNOW WHY I FELL FOR YOU? BECAUSE YOU DECIDED TO STAY BY MY DARK AND WEAK SIDE AND MADE IT BRIGHTER

LOVE IS LIKE A DAGGER IT WILL KILL YOU EVENTUALLY JUST IF YOU TAKE OUT AT RIGHT MOMENT YOU'D DIE SOONER IN PAIN AND LATER OF A COLD DEATH

SHE WAS GIRL OF DREAMS, OH, BUT YOU WERE INSOMANIAC

YOU CAN'T JUST GET INTO MY LIFE,MAKE ME FALL FOR YOU AND THEN... JUST LEAVE?..BREAKING MY HEART INTO MINUTES OF PIECES... 💗

I know you loved me... But why did you leave? I know you see That you've put me to the grieve.. If you felt every inch of my pain, Why did you drive me so crazy so insane.. You know I lost the reasons To live, every day I died.. Waiting for you for seasons.. I know I lied.. But was the reason so big? That deep in my heart the wound you dig.. Weren't we high in love? Trust me the days went so rough. The night kept on getting tough.. Why all the sweet things you said.. When all you had to leave me on road so dead..

We're just the teens who are depressed, We have got our heads so stressed, We have our hearts so heavy, Sometimes all i feel is so pity... Yes we're just teens who are dumb, And so we cry nights on our bed, We post on social media how much we're fed, We keep quite whole day, And nights we're up so late, Overthinking about our dark side, Wishing how would it feel if we died, Losing people hurts like hell, Someone heals n for them we fell, Our eyes circled dark, Wrists full with sucidal mark, We're just the teens who are so depressed, With our hearts heavy and minds so stressed, All we wish we for our thoughts to get rid, Wondering how beautiful would would it be if we were dead?

To bestfriend I fell in love with,  I've written long paragraphs and poetries for you, I've written songs and annoyed you, we've laughed together,we had deep talks. We made memories. We fought, and in the end we were back, together, laughing and teasing.  But this time no silly jokes, no laughs, no pulling each other's legs, this time I want to pour my heart...  Although you were my best friend, I shared almost everything with you, but there was so much left, and I didn't realize it until I felt...I felt something, I craved for your presence way too much, I don't know, but all I did was wanting to stare you, without stopping, without blinking. Everytime we had a fight, I knew either of us will make their way back... You were there when literally no one was, nobody to go to.. nobody to give a damn, even the people who claimed will be there through my hard times, they said they are much messed and left..  I know you were there, you used to

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